I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Friday, May 1, 2009

Damn endometrioma-we'll show you! (I hope!!!)

The nurse called me back today after I called (I love that they are so prompt!). She said they'll be watching it like a hawk. I dunno what they'll do if it's getting too big or in the way, I guess we'll cross that bridge when we get there. Best not to fill my head anyway with too many scenarios! She said it wasn't producing any hormones (AMAZING they can know that from blood, right?!?!?); which is good because that could interfere. (Anyone with scientific knowledge on that one?!)

When I get to the egg retrieval (I'm wondering IF) around the 11th, she said that they could drain it some while I'm under. That won't make it go away, but, it can relieve some of any symptoms I have from it? Eventually it'll need to be removed if I don't get pregnant and it's getting too big. Again, trying not to think that far ahead. I want the ovary OUT if I have to have another surgery again-the whole thing. They've excised my endometrioma's twice now...and, now I have a third. She wanted to keep it there for fertility purposes, two is better than one, but, obviously that's been negated at this point. Right?!?! The nurse said most likely it isn't producing any or very few follicles since the mass is attached to it.

I'm a little nervous, but, I guess that is why I'm paying them the mad $$$; for their expertise! I guess all of this illicit that kind of nervousness anyway. I'm trying my hardest to go with the flow. Sometimes that is pretty difficult for me. it just seems like even more pressure now to get pregnant. But, I need to put that thought aside. It's not up to me! I am pretty sure it's really outta my hands.

I've been a bloated mess today. Like, seriously bloated-unbutton your pants bloated. This is before stims. I am not sure what that was about. My abdomen is pretty tender. Just coming down on the bleeding; this is how I used to feel towards the end of my period. So, nothing really out of the norm for around then I suppose.

We'll see how it goes. I started my gonalF tonight; I used both thighs for my two injections. Lu.pron went down to 5 units. Monday is bloodwork, possibly an ultrasound. Ultrasound for sure on Weds. They'll let me know Monday about the menopur dosage and when to start. No turning back now...

3 comments:

callmemama said...

At 3cm, you don't need to lose your ovary. They can excise the endometrioma, if they know what they are doing. You should try and hang on to both ovaries if you can. I wish my first doctor had excised rather than drained mine - I would still have both ovaries...

Yaya said...

Oh I know that bloat you are talking about. Looks and feels like you're pregnant but you're not? Yup, gotta love the fert drugs, huh?

My sis in law her one ovary out and after the year of hormones she had to take to balance out her body from going into menopause she was able to get pregnant right away.

My Endo Journey said...

They have excised it twice, and, now it's back for a third time. That ovary needs to PEACE OUT!!!!