I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!

Thursday, August 15, 2013


So, I've been to the OBGYN a few times over the last several weeks.  Much to my delight, he took my complaints seriously and did a very thorough exam.  I hurt for DAYS after that exam.  A few days later I had an ultrasound that revealed a 4 cm endometrioma on my left ovary....which is funny because that isn't the side that has been bothering me.  Go figure.

At any rate, surgery is up to me.  Not ready for that yet.  BC-not an option, and at any rate we are keeping things open right now as far as trying again.  We aren't preventing anymore and just seeing what happens.

So, I just sit and wait.  Wait until my period is so frequent I can't handle the constant bleeding?  Wait until the pain is just too much to function?  I'll know when the time is right.  When I'm ready to go "there" again.  There are so many questions surrounding surgery, I'm just not ready to go there yet. Remove the bothersome ovary?  What about my colon involvement and it's attachment to my uterus?  Hysterectomy? 

Not ready for any of that yet.

In the meantime, I'm doing what I can to take good care of myself.  My fatigue seems to be a little better-I started exercising more frequently and maybe that's helped?  It's definitely helped my psyche.

And, in the midst of all this, our amazing little man turned two this week.  I can't believe it.  HOW has TWO YEARS gone by so quickly?  he's our entire world and I am so thankful everyday that he is ours.