I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Thursday, August 15, 2013

Yuuuup

So, I've been to the OBGYN a few times over the last several weeks.  Much to my delight, he took my complaints seriously and did a very thorough exam.  I hurt for DAYS after that exam.  A few days later I had an ultrasound that revealed a 4 cm endometrioma on my left ovary....which is funny because that isn't the side that has been bothering me.  Go figure.

At any rate, surgery is up to me.  Not ready for that yet.  BC-not an option, and at any rate we are keeping things open right now as far as trying again.  We aren't preventing anymore and just seeing what happens.

So, I just sit and wait.  Wait until my period is so frequent I can't handle the constant bleeding?  Wait until the pain is just too much to function?  I'll know when the time is right.  When I'm ready to go "there" again.  There are so many questions surrounding surgery, I'm just not ready to go there yet. Remove the bothersome ovary?  What about my colon involvement and it's attachment to my uterus?  Hysterectomy? 

Not ready for any of that yet.

In the meantime, I'm doing what I can to take good care of myself.  My fatigue seems to be a little better-I started exercising more frequently and maybe that's helped?  It's definitely helped my psyche.

And, in the midst of all this, our amazing little man turned two this week.  I can't believe it.  HOW has TWO YEARS gone by so quickly?  he's our entire world and I am so thankful everyday that he is ours. 


5 comments:

Rachel said...

I am so sorry All of it truely sucks. Hope you don't have to have surgery.

Rachel said...

I hope you don't have to have surgery. The constant daily fight with Endo is tiring. Hope you get some relief soon.

Ms.Coleman said...

Good Morning,

My name is Cherrelle Lawrence and I am fighting with Stage IV Endometriosis. I was diagnosed a year ago, but suffering from symptoms for 10+ years.

I am writing to you because I greatly admire all that you are doing with blogging your Endo Journey. I am starting an awareness campaign for Endometriosis, and I would like to know if you are interested in partnering with our blog portion, so that other fighters can read your story. We would like to use your blog as a resource on our website for our #HYRFighters. Our Web Address is: www.heryellowribbon.org

We are based in North Carolina, and are working to build a solid foundation to provide support and awareness, but also inform Endometriosis fighters about fighters, like you, that are available to help through sharing your story.

I would greatly appreciate your feedback and consideration.

Thank you,

Mrs. Cherrelle Lawrence, CDF
Founder of #HerYellowRibbon - www.heryellowribbon.org

Angela Mattox said...

Kudos to you for being brave enough to document your journey. I'm Angela and I've been dealing w/Endometriosis for about 18 yrs. I can identify with your struggles, the pain, medication that doesn't work.

How are you dealing with your pain w/o birth control? I thought I was a tough cookie, but you got me beat. Also, what exercises have you done? Exercising has worked wonders for me, so I became a fitness instructor. lastly, which operations did your Dr. present to you? I've had a laproscopy and it did help (also cleared the way for my 1st born). I have been told to think about a hysterectomy as well, but like you, I'm not ready.

Thank you for your thoughts, and keep it up!

-Angela

dacjess said...

I was looking for a way to email you but I couldn't find it. I am a 33 yr old female, diagnosed with severe endometriosis and post-op surgery to remove it which came with its own setbacks and experiences. I just started my own blog and I am amazed at all the women suffering with this disease. I browsed your website and some of your comments matched how I was feeling exactly. I would be interested in talking to you about your experience. If you go to my blog, you can email me and we can perhaps share common stories/ experiences. (I don't really do twitter). I think a community where we can find others like us is such a great idea... I should have looked sooner!
Anyway, here is my blog: http://livingwendometriosis.blogspot.com/
On the right-hand side you should be able to email me if you are interested. I hope to hear from you. Also if any other women read this post and would be interested in sharing experiences/pain/frustration/stories, etc. I am totally interested in that. I am new to blogging/blogger and still finding my way around but PLEASE feel free to email me from the link above and I will definitely respond to anyone who is going through this crappy disease with me.
Stay strong and thank you for letting me see others are out there!