I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Almost 3 months post op

Life isn't as grand as I imagined it would be before I had my last lap.  Not that things are bad per say. I just was expecting more.  That's what you get for having expectations.  HA!  After hearing from the MD though, I can see why I'm still having issues.  The nausea, he suspects, is from the build up of free fluid in my abdomen.  You know, the bleeding that occurs every months outside our uterus.  Ugh.  Barf!  Not much he could do about that except to clean up what was there when he was.

So, there's that.  The nausea IS about 75% better.  I'll take that.  Not trying to be whiny, I was just in my mind wishing for more.

My periods are still whacked out too.  I was hoping that was the cyst.  Guess not.  Bleeding/spotting still for 2 weeks/month.  I should get stock in pads and panty liners!  And the migraines.  BOO THE MIGRAINES.  I think that has to do with aging?  So says the literature  ;)

I've decided for no treatment.  We'll see how that works out for me.  Still in the back of my mind hoping to get pregnant again.  Not the IVF way though.  The monthly cycle of ups and downs with this wish are getting old too.  Too daunting.  Husband and I have decided by August...no baby, then, I'll consider some treatment and we'll stop trying.  My son will be 4 by then.  I'll be 35.  Not that either are a magical number.  Just need to have it for our mental sanity.

In the meantime, just really loving the life I have an enjoying everything we have.  Super grateful for our son.  He really just turns up everyday, every mood.  Even when he's being 3.  ;)  There's still reason to celebrate.