I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Month 3-A Bust

So, we have our appointment scheduled next week with the RE (Dec 2nd). I'm a little nervous about the appt. I'm not really sure what to expect. This month's cycles were nutty-with the good possibility that I did not ovulate (I've been spotting now for 4 days-no real period). My symptoms are kinda up and down...I guess that's good that they aren't constant though, right? My reflux has been pretty bad since last week...hoping maybe it's a little of the stress? So, I'm not sure what he's gonna say, do, what to do next, etc. So, we'll see.

Not much else new going on here. I've been pretty stressed out between my crazy cycle, home repairs that are NEVER ending and just busy life as usual. I've had a few mini-meltdowns this week. I just need to chill!!! I wish I could wiggle my nose and everything be done around this house!!!!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I learned a new term yesterday

Anovulatory. I never knew. Here's what Wikipedia had to say:

The anovulatory cycle is a menstrual cycle characterized by varying degrees of menstrual intervals and the absence of ovulation and a luteal phase. In the absence of ovulation, there will be infertility.

::Insert facetious "awesome" here::

So, I had some folks on a chat board look at my chart, and it was almost unanimous that I am heading towards not ovulating this month. It could still happen, but, it's unlikely especially with my normal charting history. The thing that I find so strange about all of this (aside from not ovulating..does that mean no real period?!?!) is that it ALL STARTED with that spotting at the beginning of the month. I was supposed to be having my period, but, it was just spotting for days..and light spotting. So, I'm not sure what all of that means, but, I don't think it's coincidence!

Anovulatory cycles can happen every so often...but, I need to keep my eye on it given my severity of endo. I have an appointment with the RE on Dec 9th, so, I'll definitely be letting him know then. Now, I'm wondering if I'll have a period this time. They say you can bleed, but it's not like a period? I don't really understand that at all. But, I guess we'll see what happens. You never know!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

It was a good weekend

Stressful with the ever-going home repairs, but, good! I had a few "pangs" on Friday night. But, other than that, nothing out of the norm. I just wanted to post because I realize I only tend to post on the negative. Not trying to be a Debbie downer...I guess I just "need" my blog more then-when I'm looking for answers and support. Ya know?

Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend!

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Anyone good with charts?

Yeah, cause mine is CRAZY this month! I've usually got a nice "regular" pattern-low temps, steady climb (dip-the ovulation), and they peak. It all started with that spotting! I took a pregnancy test thinking...okay, maybe...even after the awful bleeding and clots; but obviously it was negative. Anyone? Anyone?

Friday, November 7, 2008

Why did I say I wasn't nauseated?

Whoa, was that ever a mistake!! Today I've been home with some really awful nausea. I haven't stayed home in a while...I don't have the PTO to do it!!! BOO! I tried going in, but, only made it a couple of hours. My hubby had a stomach bug earlier this week, I got the flu shot on Weds and last night I ate an icky chicken sammy. I am not sure if it's any of those (or which one of those it is)-we'll see. I just hope it passes soon!!! My head is hurting too-ughhhhhhhhhhh.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Day 9...and guess what?

Yep, that's right...there's that right sided lower chest pain. It's definitely my diaphragm. I went to PT today and she said that my ribs towards the bottom felt a little close together, but she dug into my diaphragm (yes, it was an uncomfy as it sounds!) and said it was "icky". YEOWZERS-no joke!!! It hasn't been awful today...just really nagging. Sometimes it causes me to be a bit short of breath-but I think that's cause I'm babying it. It also causes me upper shoulder pain/headache because I've noticed I adjust my posture to also "baby" and adapt to the pain.

She also did a rub down of my abdominal area, and, it was all stuck again-very tight and not squishy as it should be (I love her, she totally uses language I can relate to!). I could actually feel as she pushed in on my right, my left side pulling. Nice.

I hate to say this, but (knocking on WOOD), I haven't been nearly as nauseated this month. I take comfort in the relief of that symptom!!!!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Welcome new bloggers...and other random thoughts

Thanks everyone for coming to visit! I am so glad that there are others out there to communicate and relate to with these issues! Helps keep me sane! I hope you find this blog and the others I have linked here helpful. We are all here for each other-that's why we write these blogs. If I can help just one person by sharing my experiences, I'll feel that this journey is for a purpose! :) Thank you everyone for sharing your stories!!!!

Things here have been going okay. I started my period on Tuesday-it was pretty bad that day and it's been rather mild since then. I'm still cramping, and, the cycle is SOOOO off. It's so strange. My temps are fluctuating a lot too. I don't know what that means.

I did call my OBGYN about my possible diaphragm involvement that I am following with my primary care-and HE called me back and left a message on Friday. He said that there really wasn't much we can do right now about the "disseminated" endo, but, I needed to keep track of everything. The only treatments he would have available would be Lupron (been there, done that) and continuous BC, which is obviously not an option right now.

I'm glad that he called me and that he knows what's going on. We'll be going to the RE at the end of the month if this cycle doesn't work out. It'll be nice to talk to him about all that is going on too. I have a feeling he'll have a bit more of insight.