Busy week ahead...

How long is the menopur regimen? Tomorrow I am scheduled for blood work, and, they'll call me with the dose of that to start. Do I take that and Lu.pron and the GonalF all together? I guess I'll get my answers manana. Really, I am TRULY taking this one step at a time. VERY unlike me, but, I knew that the more I researched and prepped, the more nervous I would be. I'm a highly anxious person in general, so, the less stress the better.

Weds is another ultrasound and blood word and Friday as well. She said on Friday they have a conference on all the IVF patients and I'll either go back in on Saturday or Sunday for another US and instructions for the ovidrel. I can't believe this has gone by so quickly. I feel so ill prepared. I need to do some reading this week and get ready. I'm really hoping that everything goes well and moves along as planned. I'm thinking nothing but positive thoughts.

Feeling a little tight and tender, but, otherwise okay. The tender is odd-kinda like my old endo pain when I would swell with fluids. But, I'm hoping this is from the meds, not endo this time.

Hoping for the best! :)

Damn endometrioma-we'll show you! (I hope!!!)

The nurse called me back today after I called (I love that they are so prompt!). She said they'll be watching it like a hawk. I dunno what they'll do if it's getting too big or in the way, I guess we'll cross that bridge when we get there. Best not to fill my head anyway with too many scenarios! She said it wasn't producing any hormones (AMAZING they can know that from blood, right?!?!?); which is good because that could interfere. (Anyone with scientific knowledge on that one?!)

When I get to the egg retrieval (I'm wondering IF) around the 11th, she said that they could drain it some while I'm under. That won't make it go away, but, it can relieve some of any symptoms I have from it? Eventually it'll need to be removed if I don't get pregnant and it's getting too big. Again, trying not to think that far ahead. I want the ovary OUT if I have to have another surgery again-the whole thing. They've excised my endometrioma's twice now...and, now I have a third. She wanted to keep it there for fertility purposes, two is better than one, but, obviously that's been negated at this point. Right?!?! The nurse said most likely it isn't producing any or very few follicles since the mass is attached to it.

I'm a little nervous, but, I guess that is why I'm paying them the mad $$$; for their expertise! I guess all of this illicit that kind of nervousness anyway. I'm trying my hardest to go with the flow. Sometimes that is pretty difficult for me. it just seems like even more pressure now to get pregnant. But, I need to put that thought aside. It's not up to me! I am pretty sure it's really outta my hands.

I've been a bloated mess today. Like, seriously bloated-unbutton your pants bloated. This is before stims. I am not sure what that was about. My abdomen is pretty tender. Just coming down on the bleeding; this is how I used to feel towards the end of my period. So, nothing really out of the norm for around then I suppose.

We'll see how it goes. I started my gonalF tonight; I used both thighs for my two injections. Lu.pron went down to 5 units. Monday is bloodwork, possibly an ultrasound. Ultrasound for sure on Weds. They'll let me know Monday about the menopur dosage and when to start. No turning back now...