I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Thursday, April 30, 2009

I hate you endo!

3 cm endometrioma on my right ovary. Yes, I had an ultrasound 2.5 weeks ago and nothing was there. Yes, I just had surgery about 6 weeks ago. And, that is why I hate you endo. And, right ovary, I'm pretty pissed at you right now too!

Maybe they are wrong? That seems awfully big! The nurse thinks my RE will stay the course. But, I'm scared now. I don't know what to do! It'll just get bigger. Does that increase my risk for anything? What happens to it if I do get pregnant? What if I don't?

If they don't call, I'm good to go with gonal f tomorrow; but, I may call. Many more questions that I started out with.

I'm just pissed! Sorry if there are typos...I'm crackberrying this!

13 comments:

Rae said...

Noooo! Freakin ovaries need to cooperate for once.

Duck said...

Have you started stims already? Seems weird to grow an endometrioma while just on supression, and just after surgery, right? WHEN I was doing an FET, and taking estrace to try and grow my lining (I grew a 7cm monster in one week, but I assumed that was the estrace). You can still cycle with endometriomas, and I'm so hoping that it's not an endometrioma and it's a more simple cyst, hugs to you.

Ash said...

I'm so sorry, Allison! Man, that really sucks.

My Endo Journey said...

Thanks duck! I dunno what's going on-they said endometrioma. I'm really hoping they are wrong. No stims yet; that's why I'm floored!!! Thanks for the positive words! I just need to clear my head and look forward. I just still cannot believe it!

JellyBelly said...

i agree! i hate endo too!!!!

Yaya said...

:( I'm sorry. :(

Kelly said...

I'm sorry! That was so quick! Endo sucks! Hope this doesn't interfere with your plans!

katery said...

nooooooo! stupid endometrioma!!! when i had my ultrasound last thursday the nurse saw a small cyst on my ovary, i'm guessing it's an endometrioma, i suppose it's possible that it's not, but they said it was fine and they'd just keep an eye on it. i started my stims the next day, no problemo.

Erika said...

Ugh! I'm so sorry to hear that! I hate endo too. I hope you're able to continue with everything and that this is it for ya! Good luck!

Amanda said...

Oh I am so unbelievably sorry to hear this it actually makes me want to cry for you! Thinking of you and hoping you get some more answers soon x

Kischa said...

Oh what a slap in the face - surgery just 6 freakin weeks ago! I hope it's not going to be a problem for you. I'm right there with ya sista - I hate endo too!

callmemama said...

Oh no - I thought they cut out that endometrioma! They grow quickly sometimes - the one that ruined my right ovary was 7cm.
I don't know anything about the IVF drugs and their effects on endometriomas. I'm sure the RE has run across these before, right? Hopefully you get some more info (and assurances) from the dr. soon!

Graham said...

I hate endometriomas!!!!! I can not believe what you have been through. You are amazing and inspiring. Here I am feeling sorry for myself and my endometromias and complaining about the pain from my HSG and you have overcome so much more. You give me hope because right now I am hating life!