I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Good to bad to more waiting

Beta on Monday was 63. Beta#2 today, 64. The number should have doubled by now. My RE called; I knew then it wasn't good news; the words "chemical pregnancy" were used. She wants me to continue on PIO shots until Friday, just in case. Seriously?!? Has a beta ever risen 1 point in 2 days and become a viable pregnancy?! This I doubt. There may be some chance, but, today the hope died in our hearts! We definitely can't get our hopes up like we did on monday. Now, we wait some more. I'll have beta#3 on Friday.

18 comments:

allisyn said...

i'm praying for you guys! nothing is impossible for God :) <3

katery said...

that sucks, i am still holding out hope for you though.

Kischa said...

I've been holding my breath for you - I'll be praying for you guys. As long as there is the smallest hope, don't give up.

Barefoot said...

Oh, no -- I'm so sorry to see this. I'll be praying for you guys as well!

Mrs. Gamgee said...

I'm sorry that you are facing this, but remember that anything really is possible. During my second m/c I came across an interesting website (www.misdiagnosedmiscarriage.com). It's full of stories of women who were told that they had blighted ovums and early miscarriages and they went on to have healthy pregnancies. Sometimes doctors give up too early. Beta numbers aren't always a solid measuring tool. Hang in there... sending prayers your way.

ICLW

JellyBelly said...

sending you prayers and hugs!

callmemama said...

I'm so sorry you didn't have better news. I know you can't let yourself hope right now, so I'll hold some hope for you.
I agree with everyone else - anything is possible!

LupronGirl said...

We're all hoping for you...even if it's hard to let yourself hope.

Christa said...

It just doesn't seem fair. I hope and pray that it's possible!

Alex said...

We'll keep hoping and praying for a miracle for you guys! ((Hugs))

K said...

Well...that bites. I'm sorry. Yes, I've read of continued BFP's with beta's such as those, but...well, you know. Will still sit tight and wish the best for you!

Erika said...

I hope you have happier news coming your way with Beta #3. Good luck, praying for you!

runamokamok said...

I know that this isn't the news you were hoping for but maybe you can look at it like...well this cycle kinda worked...maybe it doesn't stick but you got "pregnant".
So maybe you can look at it optimistically like next time the pregnancy will stick.
I dunno... Even after all these years I refuse to be glass half empty and make every attempt to be optimistic.
We'll all get there sometime...
*ICLW*

Jaymee said...

still holding onto hope for you. sending good thoughts your way.

ILCW

Amanda said...

Can't really add anything more than the girls above me - just letting you know I am thinking of you both and praying for you x

Yaya said...

Oh girl. I'm sorry. I'm hoping!!!!

Nic said...

I am so sorry. Keeping you in my thoughts

What IF? said...

Allison, this is slow torture. I'm so sorry you have to endure this after everything you've been through recently. I'm thinking about you and holding you in my heart.