I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Monday, November 29, 2010

Don't tell my mom...

But, I'm pregnant!!!

So far.

Beta was 499 this AM!!!

Truth be told, I am scared out of my mind and in complete and utter shock. The incessant migraines the past few days though gave it away for me...I should have known. I'm so scared. I just sat on the bed staring at the phone when the nurse told me. Lots of conflicting emotions. So, trying to stay grounded here and wait for Weds. test to see if they can double. Until then, I'm in love!!!! And I will be thankful for what we have been given, even though it isn't a guarantee.

If you know me, don't tell others that don't read this blog. We'll all talk more later! And, neither of our parents know a thing. Waiting a little bit so they don't have to ride an emotional roller coaster with us if there is one.

Holy cow. I seriously cannot believe it!

39 comments:

kanitzsche said...

YAY, YAY I knew it. So happy here is to doubling #

Katie said...

YAY! Congratulations!!! Fingers crossed for great numbers on Wednesday!

erin said...

YAY:)

Courtney said...

Congrats!!!! What an amazing beta :). So happy for you!

Dean said...

Fantastic news! hang in there.

Jess said...

YAY! Congrats!!!! Praying for a happy and healthy 9 months!

La loca said...

Congrats!!! so happy for you.

jeanna said...

I am sitting here with chill bumps down my arms and tears in my eyes. I can only imagine the mix of emotions you are going through and remember how I felt we we got our BFP after our loss. I am SO EXCITED for you!! Stick baby stick!!! Lots of T&P's!!!

Sarah said...

Yay!!! SO excited for you all. Congrats!

Miss Megan said...

What a great beta! So excited for you! Beleive it - you are most definitely pregnant! Woo hoo!!
Hoping and praying there is no rollercoaster of emotions coming - I understand the fear - but try to relax as much as possible and just enjoy being pregnant!!! Congrats congrats congrats!!

cgd said...

wow, amazing news. Congrats to you!!!!!!

Jennifer said...

Yay!!!!! Congratulations!!!!!!!!

Kelly said...

Congratulations!! What great news! I hope you get a fantastic doubling number on Wednesday!

Rae said...

:)!!!!!!!!!!!

Lena said...

i'm so happy for you!!
i woke up sunday morning thinking of you– and then felt a little strange since i don't even know you. :)

Nearlydawn said...

YAY! 1st hurdle passed! Hoping all goes crazy-good for your beta Wednesday.

callmemama said...

Wow, congratulations!!!

allisyn said...

yay!!!! :D praying for double #s !

katery said...

hooray!!!!! i'm so happy for you!!! congratulations!! you and venting vagina can be pregnancy buddies! you must have had your transfers on the same day or very close!

katery said...

here's her blog address in case the two of you want to be pregnancy buddies:
http://ventingvagina.wordpress.com/

Jamee said...

I seriously have tears in my eyes! I am so happy for you!!! Keeping fingers & toes crossed for doubling beta!!!!

Lisa said...

Great news! So excited for you!

Nic said...

OMG I am so pleased for you! I know there are a few more hurdles yet, but you have a BFP!!
I hope it doubles on Wed
Congrats!!
x

JellyBelly said...

Wonderful news!!!

Jeanne said...

Allison,

Woooooo hooooooooooooooo!

Jeanne

Alex said...

Thats an AMAZING beta!!! I'm SO excited for you!!! Can't wait to hear about the doubling! Keeping you guys in my thoughts and prayers!!!

jeanna said...

Hey~wanted to answer your question thought you might see it here. They have not put me on a "high risk" list or schedule, but Dr's office treats me with kid gloves. I was able to get as many beta's as I wanted, an early ultrasound, I can go in to hear the heartbeat anytime (though I have a doppler and you should get one too) and basically my nurse and dr have done everything in their power to make sure I am not stressed or anxious. Basically, I lost the twins due to identical twin complications and there is less than 1% that the same thing will happen in a single pregnancy. And if you end up with twins it won't happen to you either. Though I do have partial placenta previa this pregnancy which means pelvic rest and no exercise. But it is a "normal" thing and worst case is a c-section (i laugh everytime someone says that is the worst thing that can happen~b/c we know what is worse).

Congrats again, can't wait to hear that 2nd beta and tell us WHEN is the U/S scheduled for so we can start counting down with you!

Rachel said...

Congratulations. So happy for you

AnnaMarie said...

This is great news!

What IF? said...

What wonderful news! Beyond thrilled for you that this cycle worked! May Wednesday bring a beautiful doubling beta, and the summer, a gorgeous little baby.

Holli said...

I've been following your story for the past year or so...just got goosebumps reading your great news! Will keep praying for you...congrats!

Esperanza said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! WHAT AMAZING NEWS!!!! I'm so happy for you!!!!

devon said...

AAAAGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!! Awesome news honey!!!! so glad!!!

cOLey24 said...

I am beyond words absolutely THRILLED for you! My prayers are with your tiny bean that s/he will make a comfortable little home in there for the next few months!

Lauren, Daniel, James and baby Brendan. said...

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
WHAT WONDERFUL NEWS!!!!! AHHHHHHHH! I am so happy right now! Praying every single day!!!

butterflymom said...

:) So happy for you!!

Rosie said...

I'm SO excited and hopeful for you and Wes. Hoping for the best! :)

KC said...

I am literally jumping up and down. I am so excited for you and I just know it is going to be perfect. You give us all hope and I am over the moon happy for you!!!!

conceptionallychallenged said...

This is wonderful news -- I'm so hopeful for you!