I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Monday, November 8, 2010

We are a go...

I repeat...GO.

Ov.idrel Tuesday gets this party started!!! Transfer in T-minus 8 days!!!

Son's "birthday" in 12 days. It's gonna be a wild ride!!!

Honestly though, the timing seems kinda perfect, in it's own, strangly emotional way. We are burying Wyatt on Monday, the 15th. That has been planned for a few months now (thinking I was having our transfer today). Lay him to rest and hopefully start a new journey with our transfer the next day? One can only hope. Not to forget our past. We will never forget or want to. Just to begin moving forward with another phase. Not to say that this isn't a very emotional time for us right now, because it is. But, this is a nice, hopeful distraction. We just have to not get too hopeful, or this will surely be a crushing blow.

Really, is there such thing as not getting too hopeful?

Happy for today, and totally sticking with it!!!

15 comments:

allisyn said...

:D :D :D i'm happy for yall!

Barefoot said...

Thinking all sorts of good thoughts for you. I love the symmetry of burying Wyatt and starting a new (hopefully long) journey at the same time.

devon said...

Oh my goodness! yippee for transfer day!

Lulu said...

whoo hoo ovidrel!! good luck with this cycle and thanks for the comment on my blog : )

What IF? said...

Let's hear it for Ovid.rel and Tx day! I realize the hope is tinged with doubt and fear. But here's to hoping anyway. There is nothing sweeter than honoring Wyatt's memory as you're embarking on this cycle.

callmemama said...

More good news! Yay!

One Day said...

So so happy for you! What an emotional time, I'll be thinking about you a lot. This is a wonderful thing for you- lots of positive vibes your way :)

Alex said...

Good luck on the transfer, so excited for you!!! Will be thinking about you next week!!!

Becky said...

You've got an extra special guardian angel watching over you. Life is Good...positive vibes coming your way!

Roccie said...

Trigger away my friend!

Join me in the torture chamber of the 2ww....

Best wishes!

amanda claire said...

Oh wow I missed so much... it's Tuesday today so I'm really hoping everything went well with the Ovidrel and cannot wait for Transfer Day for you guys... you are in my thoughts and prayers big time right now xx

Lauren, Daniel, James and baby Brendan. said...

Praying it works and also saying a prayer for Wyatt's beautiful soul. Love you!

Dandle Dreams said...

Thinking of you as you put Wyatt to rest, and welcome a new embryo into your womb.

What a bittersweet time.

Jeanne said...

Allison,

Best of luck!!!

Jeanne

Lisa said...

I'll be thinking of you next week! I hope you have a smooth transfer, and the 2ww speeds by!