Thanks endometriosis, for ruining my plans this weekend. I missed the Dierks Bentley and Brad Paisley concert last night (and my killer seats!). Tonight is No Doubt; still am not sure I'll make it. The pain last night was astounding; it's MUCH better today, but, I'm still feeling tight and sore. The lortab is okay; it's not helping the swelling/bloating though. I've been taking small doses of ibuprofen as well.
We had a B-Day BBQ at the house planned for tomorrow. I made the call to cancel that. I didn't want to have to make a last minute decision since people were bringing sides. Monday, my actual B-Day, we were supposed to go to Carowinds, an amusement park. I'm thinking that won't happen either; all that thrashing around with tight harnesses on my belly. I'm really really bummed!
My website is "I Am Not Endo", but, sometimes I am. And, I hate it!!! I hate missing out on life because of my pain!!! I'm even more bummed because I had surgery 3 months ago for this mess. I know that the hormones from IVF and my early miscarriage probably aren't helping, but, wow...I never imagined this. Did the hormones make the endo inside worse? Or, is it the hormones that are just out of whack? I could definitely feel my endometrioma this morning; it's an indistinguishable pain. This pain leaves me feeling confused and unsure. Is it worth it to try IVF again? If the outcome is the same next time, I'm not sure I can handle the pain (emotional and physical). Will this course cause me to have surgery sooner than without it? Lots of questions dancing around in my head. Stupid endo. I HATE YOU!!!!!!!! I don't want you to define me...but, sometimes, you just bust up in here and take over. I won't let you win the overall battle though...I just can't!
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