Updates and New Years Ponderings

I had another US on Friday-my endometrioma has grown another few cm...now at 4x4. I had 2 mature follicles and went ahead with the ovidrel last night. I hope and pray if I do get pregnant that it all ends up where it's supposed to in my uterus. I'm still a little nervous about going through the process without the HSG, but, I dunno...I dunno! I have two friends that went through Clomid without HSG's as a first line infertility treatment, and all was good. I'm just really hoping it'll all be okay. Maybe a stupid move on my part, but, we'll see.

I've got an apt on Tuesday with ANOTHER RE clinic; my husband and I are really tired of the quality of service we are receiving where we are now. I'm not burning any bridges just in case this other Dr. doesn't give us the warm fuzzies either, but, we need to look at our options. It all started with the lack of detail we were given about this treatment (we were left thinking I was just going to take a pill and have TI) to this HSG thing. My Dr. was back in the clinic on Weds of this week...no one EVER called me to apologize for the f* up or plan something new....give me reasons...nothing! When I spoke to the nurse on Friday, she said some more inappropriate things (someone needs to tell her what is professional to say, and what isn't). After that conversation I called the nurse line and said I'd like a call back, from the Dr. himself. Or, that I needed an apt set up to come and speak with him. The clinical manager did call me back, but, after 5:30 and I missed her call. She said she'd call me first thing Monday AM-good, I'll be ready to have a very detailed conversation with her.

So, here starts our weekend and TI (yesterday, today and Sunday); then a 2 WW. My test date is 1/16 or 1/17/2009. Maybe we'll get successfully pregnant (where it needs to be, etc) and won't have to worry about any new RE's, HSG's, and all the rest of this mess!!!

Meanwhile, I constantly have this 4x4 endometrioma on my mind. It's grown almost 2 cm in a MONTH. It's definitely not a slow process, and, I just know if we aren't successful soon, too, I'll be back in the OR. Dang endometriosis!!!!! I've noticed lately that nearing ovulation, there is a lot of pressure in my abdomen and when I have to use the restroom (urinate or other), there is a pang of pain that I have to work through in order to use my muscles to go. Diaphragm has been acting up too (same time EVERY cycle-starts around day 9 through ovulation!).

As this new year begins, I am really very thankful for so much in my life. I'm thankful for this disease not completely running my life. Although it's on my mind constantly, I definitely don't have all bad days, and I'm VERY thankful for that. I am thankful for caring friends and family, especially for my husband. I am really not sure how he puts up with me sometimes. I pray that I will always try to keep a positive attitude, no matter where my life takes me and will keep my heart open to the options that are out there for us as we continue to journey towards parenthood.

I hope this new year is full of life, love, happiness and (good) HEALTH for us all!!!