I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!

While we are feeling so blessed this year because of the upcoming potential in our life, we also are missing our baby boy who left us far too soon. Looking at fellow bloggers tickers and facebook friend's status updates, I am constantly reminded of milestones we will never reach with Wyatt. Hard to believe, if born full-term, he would have been 8 MONTHS old for this Christmas. Kind of hard to NOT think of this day and what it could have been.

Instead we hold our heads high and hope for the future. So blessed and glad we have that light of hope lit in our hearts right now.

I know in the struggle of illness and infertility, some days it's hard to realize our blessings. Holidays can be especially painful, especially on such holidays where the magic of children is so stressed and so in our faces (believe me...when you struggle with infertility...it feels VERY much in your face!!!). But, I hope today you can feel the warmth and love of those around you and are comforted by sharing this day with family and friends. Merry Christmas and many great blessings for the new year to come!


Nic said...

Merry Christmas. The holidays are so hard.
Always think of u and wyatt, I'm sorry he is not down here with you guys to hold. I hope next Christmas we all have babies in our arms. X

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas!

devon said...

{{HUGS}} and Merry Christmas!

Open Air said...

Well said. Merry Christmas!

Kacey said...

I hadn't seen ur blog in a while and Something told me drop in....congratulations!!!! I am your endometriosis sister and also now have an angel baby in heaven. I am going to start praying for you now. I reas yournstory back when you lost Wyatt and couldn't imagine tour pain. Ironically I endured the same pain some months later with myndaughter Kaiya. Youncan read her story on my 2nd to last post. So excited for you and may God bless you!!