I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Pysche

Period started today.  I should go to the clinic and be like "Implantation THIS".  ;)  Not that I wasn't thinking it, because, hell...I've been TTC for YEARS.  Of course I grasp at any little straw out there.  But, don't further plant the idea into my brain!!!!
 
Here we go again.  The rain of pain has begun!  My periods haven't been too awful lately, but, I can feel them getting worse.  And by that I mean the 1-2 weeks leading up to my period are starting to become more noticeable.  Those deep pains I've had for about a week now...the nausea...the back pain...
 
Just keep on keeping on, and go with the flow (literally) for now.

11 comments:

One Day said...

Grrr...they need to keep their mouths shut, right?!

I'm feeling like your endometrioma needs to get its ass kicked. Any ideas? ...Have they found a cure for endo yet? GEEEEEEEEEEEZ!

Jeanne said...

Allison,

I'm so sorry. :(

I wish the rain of pain would go away.

"Rain, rain go away, don't come back another day"!

Jeanne

Courtney said...

So sad :(...I was hoping but didn't want to say anything. I'm so sorry!

Hillary said...

I'm so sorry about all the confusion, but I truly hope things get sorted out for your FET. I'm sort of a newcomer to the whole endo thing, as last spring it was all sort of a whirlwind leading up to our (failed) IVF/ICSI cycle. I had a huge endometrioma that they removed, and apparently a lot of other endo, but the doctor never really said how much exactly or gave it a grade. Other than horribly painful periods, I didn't notice any other symptoms. Now I'm paranoid of it all growing back and needing another surgery (it was horrible the first time). Have you had more than one lap? How do you tell if it's growing back (or can you)?

Mrs. Lemon said...

Ugh, sorry for your struggle. I had a cancelled FET in May. I switched RE's and hopefully we are going to start when my period arrives in August. I have stage IV endo and PCOS. Keep Smiling...even if you want to tear someones head off :-)

Kelly said...

Last month we were so excited because I was 4 days late! Then, AF came! Hang in there!

Ps. If only pregnancy was contagious. I would be pregnant with about 5 babies by now. I feel like everyone I know is either pregnant or just had a baby.

KC said...

Ugh....I am sorry that your cycles are getting more painful. Mine are too and I hate it. Endo sucks!!!!!

Open Air said...

I'm so sorry. I can't believe they even mentioned that to you! Don't they get it? Those words are not to be spoken lightly! I would have grasped at straws too--believe me. Yuck.

sparkles1980 said...

stay strong i know its hard xx

callmemama said...

Ugh, I'm thinking implantation bleeding is a myth. Sorry about AF, and hoping it isn't too painful!

mowse87 said...

I'm sorry, I'm going the same things as you but I'm just starting on the end infertility problems and sadness that radiates to your knees. Have started a blog too to see if it helps...good luck I hope things come right for you x x