I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Here we go again

Today is my last "drug free" (aside from the Aygestin I am already on) day.  We start FET #1, take 3, with a round of doxy, Aygestin and Lu.pron tomorrow.  In all honesty, I am nervous as hell.  I've never been this nervous before.  We've never had to wait this long before.  We've been waiting since the beginning of the year for this to take place.  I hope it all works out.  3 weeks from yesterday is our transfer date.  Here goes nothing!!!  Actually, not nothing.  Lots of hope riding on this cycle.  And, lots of emotions that will be cropping up in the next few weeks.  So, here goes A LOT!!!


Mo and Will said...

we'll be right here with you each step. i hear you on how much things get built up when there's a wait to transfer. the FET we just completed was so much more stressful than I expected - i think because it was a year in the making.

thinking of you : )


jeanna said...

lots of T&P coming your way for the next few weeks. I really hope this is it for you.

Cheri said...

I've been following you since August of 2009. You're in many people's thoughts and prayers. Hope this is the one for you. - Lisa's mom

Anonymous said...

good luck, i'll be checking in to see how things are going :)

Jeanne said...


Thinking of you!


Dandle Dreams said...

Here via Cycle Sista.

So sorry to read about the loss of your sweet little Wyatt.

I hope that one of his siblings soon finds a place in your womb.

Best of luck for this cycle.

Anonymous said...

I'll be cheering you on this cycle! Hope the next few weeks go smoothly :).

devon said...

good luck! I'll be praying!!!

Roccie said...

Lupron is easy peasy.


You can do this with the cycle sisters by your side.

butterflymom said...

Crossing my fingers and toes for you....((hugs))