I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

A week of highs and lows

This week marks our viability milestone in our pregnancy!!!! 25 weeks on last Thursday! What a beautiful blessing for us to be celebrating. Each and every day is more and more cause for celebration, as we ever so steadily reach for the next "checkpoint" in this journey towards parenthood.

Ironically, it is also the week that if I had carried Wyatt to term, we'd be celebrating his first birthday. I have several friends who were due around the same time I was. Several people that I blog with as well. Seeing their facebook and blog posts about their little one's upcoming big days literally knocked the breath out of me. A punch to the gut. I totally wasn't expecting that reaction. I never really thought of April 23rd as his "day", but, I guess to my subconscious it will always be in some fashion. These dates stick with you, even when you think they won't.
We had a nice little mini vacation away this week...and what great timing!! On the way home, we stopped by to see family and visited with Wyatt at the cemetery. It was a very emotional visit, but, felt good. We love and miss our little guy so much!!!

What a beautiful week for us to get away to celebrate love, loss and life!!!


Nic said...

Congrats on getting to 25 weeks!! Pleased all is well.
Sorry that it has also been a hard week.
Thinking of you all and Wyatt

Marianne said...

I am so glad your pregnancy is progressing well! And I'm glad you were able to visit Wyatt's grave. The anniversaries and birthdays are very hard I'm sure.

Anonymous said...

i'm glad you got a little vacation, you deserve it, i hope you're feeling good.

Ed said...

That's awesome, girl.

Mathilde-de-la-Mole said...

I recently found your blog via yahoo and was so touched by your story, as I am living with endo and infertility as well! I am SO happy for you and for some reason I am worrying about you just like I would have for myself. it feels like your baby would give many of us hope so it's going to be so precious in so many ways. Please stay posistive, I will be thinking of you a lot! Rosa

KC said...

I am glad you had a little retreat and a visit with Wyatt. I can only imagine how difficult it was to mark April 23 this year. Your strength amazes me.
Thanks for the post on my blog!

Woman Warrior said...

I can't imagine the range of emotions for you and your husband that day. But what a beautiful gift of reaching such an incredible milestone! Sending lots of happiness your way!