I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Monday, September 13, 2010

Torn

Today is Day 1.  And, I'm torn about what to do.  This is supposed to be the mega cycle...our grand finale.  And now, I don't know what to do.  I am going to call the clinic today and talk with the nurse.  She needs to fax all the prescriptions to my insurance company so we can figure out what's covered and if we can even afford this right now.  You see, we are in the middle of a move.  Our movers come tomorrow.  And, with moving, there are lots of lilttle things here and there to pay for. 
 
AND, I am not sold on taking all these meds LIKE I'm doing an IVF cycle...but without the retrieval.  Seems kinda silly to take all those drugs without doing the whole protocol, you know?  I am switching insurance for next year.  Technically, I can wait until Jan1, take all these medications, and do a fresh cycle.  Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
 
AND I don't know what's going on with this cyst and it's making me nervous.  Double Ughhhhhhhhhhhhh.
 
I may just go on the Aygestin and wait a little bit while I sort through all the questions in my head...
 
To be continued...

5 comments:

katery said...

good luck, these are tough decisions to make.

Richa said...

Just read ur blog
Felt very heavy with what ur suffering
With all my heart i wish u grt future ahead. God has kept something very beautiful for u U justkeep ur spirits high It ll be thr even before u can imagine. All my prayers r for u.
All the best

Jeanne said...

Allison,

Follow your gut instincts... whatever they may be.

Jeanne
xoxo

Nic said...

Hey, just thought I would check in on you and see how things are and what you have decided. I saw you were on cycle sista, does this mean you are going ahead?

I started my meds for my FET today, very exciting!
x

J said...

Hoping you find peace in whatever decision you choose. BTW, that reaction looks so painful! Poor thing!