I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Saturday, August 27, 2011

The real deal

I never saw Wyatt's feet. All I have left are his foot prints. Our photographer sent us this sneak peek this morning of Connor's feet...oh how special it is!
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Sunday, August 21, 2011

He's here!

8 pounds, 4 ounces
21.75 inches long
8/13/2011 at 437 AM

Love him to pieces! Trying to adjust to our new life. Hormones are bad!!
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Monday, August 1, 2011

Happy August

July was an interesting month and I'm glad it's come and gone!!! I'd like no more of the kind of excitement it entailed...thank you very much!

Happy August!  Our son will be born THIS month!!!

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

36 weeks...(warning, belly pic)

Almost there. I can hardly believe it. Things have been a little busy around here and hubby had a recent (minor, although, it didn't seem like it at the time) health scare that has really shaken me. I love that man. The thought of anything happening to him literally makes me ill. So, I've been kind of MIA from this blog with the blur of everything.

Just wanted to touch base and catch up with everyone. We recently had some maternity pictures taken and during the shoot I had the photographer get one for us to hang up for Wyatt. I actually saw the picture on Jeanna's Blog a while ago and have been wanting to recreate it. I wanted to share that. Also, I know that pregnancy is a touchy subject for most readers, but I feel very beautiful and extremely blessed to be where we are and I don't want to hide it. I hope that does not offend. I will never forget where this miracle came from and what we went through to get here. And, I know that my battle with endometriosis is long from over. Is it ever over? I am not naive to the fact that I may return to my normally, painful self...could be soon. So, for now I'm enjoying the blessings that we have and praying for those trying to get there-however that may be.

Taken at 32 weeks

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Pregnancy between infertility friends

Hey everyone.  Sorry I've been MIA lately.  Life is hectic, but, that's a positive thing.  I will be 32 weeks this week.  I still cannot believe it.  Loving every second of it, even when I am not loving it.  I remember daily how blessed we are and I am SO thankful to be this far.  Countdown has begun.  I'm feeling less scared and know that if my baby comes today he has so many options and so many chances.  Still, I'd like him to stay put for at least another 5 weeks.  Stay put little guy!!!
 
A friend forwarded me this article today, and, I wanted to share.
 
 

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mother's Day

Thinking about all moms today, especially those who only were able to hold their child in their hearts, those who held their child if only for a short time and all those still waiting for their moment...
God Bless!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

A week of highs and lows

This week marks our viability milestone in our pregnancy!!!! 25 weeks on last Thursday! What a beautiful blessing for us to be celebrating. Each and every day is more and more cause for celebration, as we ever so steadily reach for the next "checkpoint" in this journey towards parenthood.

Ironically, it is also the week that if I had carried Wyatt to term, we'd be celebrating his first birthday. I have several friends who were due around the same time I was. Several people that I blog with as well. Seeing their facebook and blog posts about their little one's upcoming big days literally knocked the breath out of me. A punch to the gut. I totally wasn't expecting that reaction. I never really thought of April 23rd as his "day", but, I guess to my subconscious it will always be in some fashion. These dates stick with you, even when you think they won't.
We had a nice little mini vacation away this week...and what great timing!! On the way home, we stopped by to see family and visited with Wyatt at the cemetery. It was a very emotional visit, but, felt good. We love and miss our little guy so much!!!

What a beautiful week for us to get away to celebrate love, loss and life!!!