I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Friday, February 4, 2011

Another hurdle hurdled!

Today we had an ultrasound-14 weeks, 1 day. This baby and this body are doing amazingly well! Cervix was nice and long, baby was moving about and doing well, fluid levels are good...just a fabulous report all around. Apparently my placenta is lying a little low. While not expected, it is not uncommon and most of the times it will correct itself. They will recheck at the next visit in a few weeks. In the meantime, a good bill of health and worries eased for the moment.

The appointment made us really miss our Wyatt. They think we are having another boy. It was very strange being here again (at another ultrasound)...in very different circumstances than just what seems such a short time ago. I guess it's actually been a while. Seems like yesterday! However, we are very comforted in knowing that this baby has one, VERY special guardian angel watching over him. Always. I know the next few weeks are going to be pretty emotional for us as we make our way to that 17/18 week mark. Every day is a cause for celebration...but everyday is bringing painful reminders back into our fore front.

We love you Wyatt. We love you new little D. You are both our children...and we will love you always. No matter what.

Now stay put baby! You've got some more months of growing, ok?!

18 comments:

jeanna said...

I have been where you are at and those emotions are hard to describe. In an old blog post, I wrote a letter to my newest baby boy and one line keeps me repeating in my head. "You are not a replacement for your older brothers, but a more cherished child and son because of them." It is hard to describe the joy we have in having another son (of course we didn't really care), but it is a very sweet joy to be able to dream about this baby boy and do the things with him we wanted to do with his brothers.

I am SO happy to hear your cervix is doing its job and that this new baby is growing and HEALTHY! Our placenta is low and we are looking at a c/s. The drs and nurses keeps saying to me "worst case scenario is a c/s". I think you and I both know that is NOT the worst case scenario.

I love the thought of our babies big brothers being guardian angels over them! I hadn't thought of it that way.

Take care!

Jennifer said...

Congratulations on a great appointment! Even though this is a very happy time for you guys I know that it is emotional as well. Wyatt will always be in your thoughts and in your heart. I'm praying for your family.

Heather said...

I know how you are feeling, I rememeber having an ultrasound after losing our twins, and it exciting and sad and everything all at once! Your post title says it all Another hurdle hurdled!
You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Katie said...

So very exciting! Praying for another 26 healthy weeks for you and Baby D!

Lisa said...

I am so happy that things are going smoothly. I saw the ultrasounds on your other blog and smiled and smiled. You deserve this more than anyone I know.

endochick said...

U sincerely hope you have a healthy pregnancy and baby to hold. You are in my thoughts! Contacts.

Kelly said...

YAY! Many hugs and good thoughts coming your way!

What IF? said...

Hoping and praying with you for a long, safe, pregnancy and a beautiful child to raise here on Earth. Sending you strength and peace as you face the next 4-5 weeks. xx

callmemama said...

Congrats on 14 wks and a great u/s!

Miss Megan said...

So glad everything is going well! I can absolutely understand missing Wyatt, especially at this point in your pregnancy. You are doing great momma =). Keep enjoying every day!

amanda claire said...

So glad to hear that your scan went well and everything is looking good... continuing to keep you all in my prayers xx

erin said...

I wondered how the thought of another boy would be for yall...but I know God has a plan and knows what is best. Plus I mean can you see anything but a boy so that Weston can have fun playing with all the toys and video games with him?:)

Jenny said...

hey, I just found your blog. I'm always happy to find another infertile/endo blogger who understands the fears we go through once we finally get the bfp.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your first child. It's heartbreaking.

Endo_Life said...

Great news that the ultrasound went well for you. Most definitely stay put little one. I have recently started reading your blog and have left you an award over at my own blog.

endoandbeyond said...

Very exciting!!

Jeanne said...

It must be a strange mix of emotions happening now. Sending positive thoughts and energy your way!

Jeanne

berri said...

I'm glad I came across your blog. After surgery for Stage IV endo in 2000, I had a miscarriage but then a healthy boy (he's 8 now!). Another miscarriage, more surgery and lupron, but then my sweet gorgeous girl (she's now 3). At 43, I'm done having children. But I just wanted you to know that it is possible to have healthy, complete pregnancies, even with Stage IV symptoms (my endo goes all the way to my intestines, bladder, stomach, as well as uterus, tubes, ovaries). My miscarriages happened under 8 weeks. Past 12 weeks, you are doing great! Good luck! I think you'll be fine!

Jennifer said...

How are you doing? Update! Update!