I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!





Sunday, May 30, 2010

Blogging break

I haven't been on much lately because I've needed a blogging break. Me time. Trying to focus my life on the positives in this down time has been hard. Harping on my endo and infertility hadn't been really helping. So, during our move and while we wait on our new house, I've decided to be scarce.

I hate endo and infertility. Not a day goes by that I don't think about how different our life would be right now with Wyatt. I turn 30 in a little over a week. 30 isn't old, I know. Today, it just feels like it. Infertility has aged me.

I'm trying really hard to NOT think about getting pregnant every month. My blogging absence has helped some with that, and, another reason to take a breather.

I won't stop completely. I'll be around. Just need to find my old positivity and zest!!! I miss it. I will not let endo and infertility steal that from me.

All ramblings from a tiny cell phone keyboard. Hope you all are well!

7 comments:

JellyBelly said...

Glad to see that you're back! I hope that your break was good for your heart and your head!

Lauren, Daniel, James and baby Brendan. said...

Glad to hear from you. I had been missing you!

amanda claire said...

I cannot begin to imagine how hard it has been for you, and have been keeping you in my thoughts. I think a blogging break sounds perfect for you. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers during your break xx

Nic said...

Pleased that you are still around. I understand why you are taking a break from blogging. Blogging is a great outlet, but also a continous reminder.
Take care x

callmemama said...

I have noticed lately that the longer I stay away from blogging, that more optimistic I feel...
I've tried to keep that in mind when I read blogs or write posts, to be mindful of how it's affecting my moods, etc.
I completely understand the need to be a little absent once in a while :). Thinking of you - hoping you are having a good Memorial Day!

Barefoot said...

You'll be missed! Good luck with your move, and getting refocused on the positive. Hoping you find your zest and are back soon!

Jeanne said...

Allison,

I am glad you are taking whatever time you need. Give yourself a pat on the back for recognizing what you needed to do to cope with everything - in the way that's best for you.

That doesn't mean you're not missed, of course! It just means that I'm happy that you are taking care of yourself.

I have no worries about endometriosis and infertility stealing your positivity and zest from you because you have deep reserves of both.

When the time is right to be online more, I am guessing you will be. Let that happen on your own natural timetable with no outside pressure.

After all, your blog is meant to be a therapeutic outlet... not another obligation on your list of responsibilities.

So, try to keep focusing on the positives and know that many people have you in their thoughts! :)

Jeanne