I am 35 years old, living with stage IV Endometriosis, possibly adenomyosis and struggled with infertility for almost 4 years. I also struggled with PPD and now struggle with PMDD. I am a mother to a son that was born at 18 weeks and too precious for this earth; and now a mother to a son born in August 2011. By journaling here, I hope to benefit both for myself and for others that are dealing with this disease and fertility struggles. Thanks for visiting!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

A week of highs and lows

This week marks our viability milestone in our pregnancy!!!! 25 weeks on last Thursday! What a beautiful blessing for us to be celebrating. Each and every day is more and more cause for celebration, as we ever so steadily reach for the next "checkpoint" in this journey towards parenthood.

Ironically, it is also the week that if I had carried Wyatt to term, we'd be celebrating his first birthday. I have several friends who were due around the same time I was. Several people that I blog with as well. Seeing their facebook and blog posts about their little one's upcoming big days literally knocked the breath out of me. A punch to the gut. I totally wasn't expecting that reaction. I never really thought of April 23rd as his "day", but, I guess to my subconscious it will always be in some fashion. These dates stick with you, even when you think they won't.
We had a nice little mini vacation away this week...and what great timing!! On the way home, we stopped by to see family and visited with Wyatt at the cemetery. It was a very emotional visit, but, felt good. We love and miss our little guy so much!!!

What a beautiful week for us to get away to celebrate love, loss and life!!!